Sunday, April 19, 2009
my housemate had been organizing a birthday party for a friend, and it reminds me of myself when i was back in Bukit Jalil. Frantic was the word. i would dance, sing, surprise the birthday boys or girls.. and etc. however, having had come to seremban, i have seemed to lose touch with the tradition, and i cant help thinking that, birthday is just another ordinary day. i am not anymore excited about my own birthday. let alone my friends'.
i guess, that's mainly due to a tight schedule in the system that i hardly have anytime to breathe, to not talk, to not communicate, to just be primitive, and do whatever things that come to my liking. it sometimes scares me that i am way too comfortable living with myself, that i hardly want to go out in the weekends to socialize.
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talking about a friend of mine, i have of late had made a distance which i think it's a safe distance. i would mourn about the lost friendship, about the time we had spent, about the conversation we had, about..but despite all these, i still had made my choice. i know it's selfish for me to cut this string of friendship, but to put up on a fake mask, that would do more harm and hurtful to this friend of mine. this friend of mine had not believed in friendship that could last forever, and i used to reassure this friend of mine that some would.
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studying has been fun lately and productive. i seem to have found a little bit of things i dropped few years back. i hope it is coming back to me soon, as i so need of it. another friend of mine, has always made a difficult situation turned out to be a test of life, and to always believe that being persistent and perservarance would pay off. i guess i am inspired by this friend of mine.
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i guess i am pretty lucky to have met inspiring people along my pursuit of my knowledge in medical field. i have not known if i would go far, or whether i would go more than having MBBS. but somehow, i am inspired by doctors who have done the right thing and shown me the correct path. i remember the most, D.S, D.K, Prof H, and adding to the list, Dr. Lee!
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