Saturday, June 27, 2009
lately, i have seen so much in the ward.
sometimes, it surprised me that
i myself could be so
cold-hearted, insensitive and not professional.just one day when i was in the ward, there was this middle aged lady who was my mum's age. she was writhing in pain, and asked if i could give her a painkiller. i was too focused to find out about my patient that i somehow ignored her.
then i realised,
how if that was my mum?
or my father?
or anyone whom i love, would i be able to ignore. first thing i learnt i could be so heartless.
i found out about my patient, and she complained of epigastric pain with symptoms of heart failure. i was too lethargic to get my brain to work, and just the next hour, she was too restless to talk, and i was shocked, so i summoned a doctor. and the next thing, she was in asystole, and 15 minutes of CPR done, she found her heart rhythm back.
the next morning when i presented the case to dato, it surprised him, and it surprised me. did we just do enough by clerking and performing physical examination and treat her so superficially as acute cholesytitis when she could have a more sinister disease-
myocardial infarction?
she was later transfered to ICU. i need to go ICU to find out how she has been doing. a tragic. a lesson i hope i would always remember. if that's our mum. would we probe more? would we be more eager?
we have always said. we wanna save more patients, first and foremost if only we do no harm.i hope i remember my lesson.
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