Tuesday, July 7, 2009
i believe that when people dont get me, they think i am crazy, insane..and i realise that the world out there is a serious world, that's when people sigh that they havent laughed enough when they are able to.
saw this few days ago, and it was echoing in my brain so much that i was thinking about it even when i was attending my clinic. a lot of things, i had thought to myself, of the negative things, of what people thought of me, of what i should do to meet people's expectation, of trying to please everyone...a lot of time i jumped into my own trap. because no one ever came to me and said i was useless, brainless, shameful..most of the time, i thought i so well interpreted people's facial expression, the gesture and etc, and i used what i deemed what my powerful ability to set myself into my own trap.in the process, i thought i would gain more popularity, but only to realise i was losing myself.
i have been complaining a lot about the situation, about the people, about the
circumstances.
*人往往很易坠进自己的套圈，猜度别人的心理及想法，以求达到预期的反应。目标无错可能达到，但过程中，没有“自己”的存在，亦失去了享受真感情的乐趣. **光是想做人是否快乐是无用的。道理很简单，人本身已经够复杂，但几复杂的事都其实很简单。问题在于这所有的复杂都是你自己制造出来的。final exam in WEEKS' time, how time flies. i am scared, really scared. but at the same time, i am trying to make the most of it..
we are at the finishing line now. just a step away from being what we have been fighting hard to be.
let's make the best of it.
Y7:34 AM
